OK…I’m getting sick of hearing myself saying the word “takut” in front of my friends. Even if the context is not appropriate the words just keeps slipping out from my mouth. What am I so afraid of? Life? Lies and hypocrisy that I have to put up all the time? what?

Whenever I say that word it just makes me feel and look weak. I’m not weak…or am I? Pening kepala tau. I’d like to use a different malay verb once in a while but I will still end up with that damn word! WHAT AM I SO AFRAID OF that in my subconscious mind keeps repeating that word and makes me blurt it out so often? What am I so afraid of?

Same goes to talking out loud when I’m actually grunting and complaining inside my head. I don’t actually say the exact words out loud just some portions of it bersama dengan gaya menyampah dan mutu keunggulan seorang yg sedang gila gila complaint. Pelik tau…rasa mcm orang gila pulak.

so, what is going on here???