So I have typed 2 paragraphs previously and suddenly I clicked on the close tab button and all was lost! 😅 And here I am retyping again. I’ve even checked the draft part in hopes that they have auto save but in vain 🙈. This was because I wanted to add emojies in the blog post but somehow could not find the shortcut keys settings for my physical keyboard that is attached to my tablet.

Ok moving on to the the mother’s day rant, today was nothing special for me. The day went as normal as possible without having me to do anything but as the day came to an end, my kids were always quarelling and yelling at each other until I yelled back at them saying it was mother’s day today so cant they at least just be quiet for a day! 🙉 I guess the feeling of seeing everyone else is celebrating mother’s day and get special gifts or wish cards in instagram somehow did leave hole burnt in my heart longing for these things too.

But then for me to be asking silly things from my kids is too much since I’m not doing my 100% of mom duty anyway with them. I have had helped from Bibik Ayu most of the time. Showering them, cooking for them and also cleaning Afeeya’s poop is being outsourced to bibik. So what am I left to do? Though sometimes I did helped to cook once in a blue moon and did care about their homework but that is all. Even the fun activities are being done mostly by their Abie. Really? why would they be wanting to get me a wish card or get me special gifts after how I took care of them? So there is no reason for me to be sulking all the way since I cheated in taking care of them. Right? 😒 I’m always scolding them and yelling at them too. haihh…maybe I need to reflect and try my best to change my ways of teaching and bringing them up to be better siblings to each other.

p/s: after the information of mother’s day was relayed to them, they actually did a small and quick cut outs for me but was thrown away by bibik as she thought it was “sampah”. It was Auni’s idea though & the sisters just followed through the plan.

Ok…that’s it all for now! ttyl…

💕,

Farah