haha…I got the shock of my life today when my school friends posted up a few school pics of me in Facebook.

Frankly speaking, I hate my school pics from the day they call me standard one to the day I’m in form five! Aku mmg hodoh dikala itu. Macam skang nie hot sangat jer la kan hahah , sememangnya tak laa sbb dulu dgn skang sama je hodoh cume skang nie bleh terima kenyataan je and becoming more comfortable with who I am inside out.

Looking at those pictures, it only brings back more bad memories that I have during school days more than the good ones. That’s why I never missed school. I never loved going to school like some of my other friends. They all just fanatics schoolers and were really happy to see the teachers and friends. As for me, I was never good in being friendly to anybody at school. I was moody, back bitting, friend stealer and you name it. hahah I hope I’m better now at it…huhu

No offense to people who posted up the pics but seriously, it really saddens me more than makes me happy. I dont even remember where my school pics are kept in the house. hahha I’m in denial, I know where some of it is but I just refuse to remember them so I wont take a peek at it and eventually forget my unhappy childhood life. Begitu punya tak sukalah aku pada sekolah sendiri. This is seriously funny. Plus I was never that smart either and I felt that people looked down on me since my sister is really the GREAT persona there. What damage have it done to my self-esteem. Only god knows….that’s why I choose MMU because there are no sisters to be compared too and people know me as Farah not an ex-bbgsians or something….huhu

That’s why whenever there is any reunion being made with my schoolmate or anything, I’m reluctant to go not because I dont want to see them all but I just do not want myself to feel so low as I did before. hahah bodoh kan?? I’m writting this at the office and I’m close to tears now…bengong betul!! huhuhu..so if you feel that I have lost contact and just poyo jer tak bleh hang out, actually this is my real answer. hahah

I guess I better stop now before everything comes gushing out….omg!! my eyes are watery now..STOP STOP!! hehe… back to work peeps…..toodles….