As for me, I’ll be starting my job back on Tuesday. adoi!~! terasa kemasalan sungguh tapi nak buat macam mana, that’s life after graduating. No more skiving for free and ikut sesuka-sesuki. There is a reputation to uphold. Bosan bosan…..
Kalau ikutkan masa kecik dulu, my ambition was to be a news reader at TV3. As I heard, kena jadi journalist dulu than after years of experience baru jadi anchor women tapi cita-cita I nie tak kesampaian pasal I’m not that good in writing my BM essays. So, I buried it deep deep deep deep deep down plus I was not enough glamor….
Then, as time flies by, there is this reality tv show call Akademi Fantasia. OMG!! How I wish I wanna go the audition tapi my dad pulak membantah. A few of my friends said why not but I have this low self-esteem problem and I reliaze that my voice is ain’t that good so, buried it deep deep deep down again…..kareoke kat rumah & depan computer sudah!!
So, I stuck in the IT field. Studied and got a degree in IT and now working in an IT company. Supposed I should be happy and bersyukur but I feel like somethings is missing. Actually back in kampung, I had a talk with my uncle and cousins. The main question was actually “what are our plans for the next 5 years?” and I’ve come to a conclusion that since I was a kid, I never had a serious ambition hence never planned ahead on how I want my life to be in the future. Amazingly, I’m not the only one who is facing this problem laa….my cousins also. As I recalled my uncle said we are clueless, not ready and playful. I totally agree with him with that fact but the more I think about it…I feel so blur!! I really want to become some big shot in a company but as I think about it I dunno where to start. Should I go to and be a lecturer? should I built my own company? should I join the enormous and giant companies?? should I just go into government? really I still feel clueless……
Sometimes I even feel like working at KLCC in Parkson somewhere selling cosmetics or be the cashier girl. Life seems so easy for them but it was only from my point of view as the shopper. I wouldn’t know what’s happening behind the scenes. haih!!~!! I’m so lost….no sense of direction at all but all I know is that I want to earn money to support my life style. now, how am I supposed to do that and where should I start? Takkan asyik nak ikut perasaan and find the best job that suits me and tak kan laa I nak stay at one job just because they pay more but my heart is not satisfied??
Ada one time nie jugak, I feel like joining any company yang handle mcm all those events like concerts awards show and everything. Kiranya mcm handle all the management work for the project but my degree is waaaaaaaayyyyyy of limits. Lighting pun tak tau jaga, sound system pun mcm tak pandai sgt….kalau nak buat backdrop multimedia canggih pun bukan I reti sangat….althought I know I love to do all that but still lack of skills le plak…..
haih!! dilemma…….
,Farah Ramlee
akak tak nak cakap byk pasal ni sbb akak sendiri pun way far (yeke?) from what i dream of. just wanna say: love what u do and do what u love.im quite certain what am gonna be in 5 yrs time but i just hope for 1 uncertain thing to happen. i wanna get married. with someone i love. to me, this is the most difficult part. i cant seem to see anyone, just yet. aishh… 🙁 susahnya hidup ni.well farah, life is about to see something imperfect perfectly. if u see ur current work doesnt satisfy u, instead, u try to satisfy it. later, it will satisfy u as the saying goes: tak kenal maka tak cinta.im sure u have a better philosophy about this 🙂 just give the best damn shot in ur work. at least, give the very best try 🙂
teringat kawan kita bila baca entri farah yang ini. dia pun ada dilema yang seakan-akan mcm farah. 🙂
oh! event management. mmg best. tapi, malang nyer, susah nak masuk market tuh. coz, you know.. apparently somebody lied and tell me that malaysia is a bunch of cultures and races living in harmony.that somebody lied.seriously.that industry’s main players are not bumis laa (not to be racist ok? but its the fact). even saya pun susah nak masuk event management nie haa.tatau laa pointer rendah ker apa kan? hahahahah!!n’way, hang on. dreams can come true. if you fight for it lah. =D